Such an un-import-an-T note

How do you put your feeling and emotion in such simple words? I don’t know. That’s the question that I ask my self tonight when this sort of feeling consumes my common sense. Am I on the way to such craziness or just a simple euphoria lurking in my gray cells somewhere on my mind? I don’t know.

This feeling comes and I just stare freeze in front of my notebook’s screen. So pathetic, isn’t it? It’s not self-pity when suddenly all memories comes flashback and it’s like I am staring on black-white or colorful tellie’s screen of any motion pictures. Nope, it’s not like that. It’s just like golden memories of something, or let’s says anything, like the beehive or rose stalks. Thorny yet so sweet and precious. I just don’t know how to put into words what I feel tonight.

I feel the love in the air whenever I inhale, whenever I take the breath though the wind blows fiercely outside *such a metaphorical saying isn’t it?

I am loved, that’s all I know. This presence of love is so strong and makes me smile all the time. Feel like someone out there misses me, deeply madly! I am just such a simple ordinary woman, 27 yo indeed. Yet, people tend to misunderstood me by stating that I may expect too much on wedding or long time relationship for I used to say something about wedding in my Facebook’s status or wall, posting such great love songs and videos ‘n say that “those songs would be in my wedding party blah .. blah .. blah”. Hallo, I am such a blabbermouth, so what’s the problem? I don’t expect you to drop by or sneaking on my wall anyway. I just love to express my self, that’s all. I love to say anything that I want to say and definitely that’s my right ^___^ If you don’t like it, just simply remove me or blocking me, as easy as it is, right and I don’t care. Yet, don’t expect me to help you anyway, that’s my right, too. Such an indifferent woman I am.

Anyway, tonight is so great for I start to express my feeling, a simple feeling or the complex one, in such different language. I am not good to express it in this language .. LOL. Keep trying!!!

I just can’t wait to count my days to go home and enjoy such a sunny day under the sun, becoming Manokwari’s beachbum 2010, and thinkin’ ‘bout the good old days in Canberra :D Ooops, plus shaping my body and make sure my bums ‘n boobs in such a good shape *what a mind transformation for bride-price assets LOL

(Canberra, 28th may 2010)